This past month has been marvelous in many, many ways! Although I've known a new court date would be up and coming in the near future to have a month of reprieve was unbelievable and the weight was lifted from me during that time. October was a busy, busy month for us but in a good way. There were so many great things I got to do with the kiddos and just be able to spend that quality time with them and enjoy their laughter. Thank you, Lord!
About mid-month the "rain" began. You know those moments when one thing breaks and all the rest follow suite?....This has been transpiring and I have wondered how exactly to address them all. It has not been a 'huge' ordeal per-say, until I see them all piled up together staring at me with their creepy, little eyes and their devilish grins. Okay, not really....but it can be overwhelming.
And, today topped the cake. I've been served....AGAIN!!! I knew it was coming and I knew exactly what it would be but it didn't lessen the blow. It's frightening to say the least! And, so my faith walk just got escalated ten fold. It's not just a matter of what the Judge will say this time, but also how we will obtain the resources to make the fight, whether or not we will face the same Judge, and how in the midst of it all the "rain" will dry.
What's the scoop on the Judge in question you ask?....Our Judge is retiring at the end of the year. That's right, ANOTHER new Judge! And, I have mixed feelings about it. Certainly this Judge has not been one that gave a fair ruling in light of the case at hand, but it also stands true that this Judge has yet to hear the truth. Then again, it was this Judge that refused to allow the truth to be presented in the court room. When I find myself in these circumstances, I can not help but wander if things would change entirely if in light of new "truths" coming out in the court room and more of the ex's personality being revealed surely a Judge would at some point take a stand and say ENOUGH already. But, it also may be very likely that a new Judge will be the one to see through it all.
My experience has obviously not been favorable thus far. And, because I don't know what the best option would be this is why I pray and pray and pray!!! Given the timing of the motion and the fact that there is another matter before the court that will likely turn into a hearing as well, it is very possible that the court date will not be until the first of the year which would definitely mean a new Judge. I'm just praying and asking for your prayers as well, that the best option is what will transpire.
My life continues on in the midst and although the weight fell back upon me today, I still press forward. I must continue to do the next right thing and trust. In this season of Thanks with all that is going on, I will say that I am Thankful for 3 of the most precious kiddos ever that love me unconditionally, that teach me about life every day, and that share the most contagious laughter. And, I am Thankful for the most amazing prayer warriors that have stood by my side in the midst of all these trials, that encourage me, that inspire me to continue living for and in Him, and that love me when I struggle in all areas.
Psalm 69:30
I will praise God’s name in song and glorify him with thanksgiving.
Psalm 95:2
Let us come before him with thanksgiving and extol him with music and song.
