Migraine to Freedom

This was a BIG day!  And, the start of today was most unpleasant.  I felt it before I ever opened my eyes....that irritating throb in my head before I can even begin to stir indicating migraine, migraine.  And, today's was not just any migraine....it was one of those that literally makes ya sick.  Ick!  I was miserable....until that glorious moment....  And, really this a very rare thing in my world.  Of all days, huh?  Maybe it was just really poor timing (as if good timing for such a thing really exists) or maybe it was nerves, but none the less a nightmare.  Thankfully, it started to lessen closer to crunch time.

Today's events brought about a lot of new 'firsts' if you will.  First time facing the "system" in AR.  First time before the new power that be's.  :)  (My apologies to my fantabulous English teachers.  I really know better!)

Surprisingly, I did indeed remain calm throughout the entire experience.  I attribute the majority of this to God....period.  It most certainly would take a miracle.  The end result is that I remain free and we'll just leave it at that for now.  This was of course a good thing.  But, ya know....things never play out as you might expect.  The other aspect of today is that some more pertinent things are left unresolved for now with those decisions left to be addressed in the near future.

You would think that I'd walk away feeling good given today's outcome and initially I did experience this feeling; but it was short-lived and followed by a sinking feeling that has been hard to shake.  Is that based on past experience, or is that partly instincts of what's to come as a form of retaliation?  Could be either or neither.  But, I'd be lying if I said they didn't exist.


My decision in facing those uneasy feelings though is to turn back to God over and over again, to remain in prayer for what still lies ahead, for the powers that be to have the ability to see the truth and to make those decisions accordingly, and for the resolve to become a part of our lives.


I end today thanking God for granting my the ability to maintain peace within a process that is void of such a term.